When you are half awake, walking into the elevator and the first thing meets your nose is someone's fucking funky ass onion fart, it's bound to wake you up. So here I am, sans coffee and wide awake. Still feeling a little violate about this morning's incident, b/c my office is on the 44th floor, i can only hold my breathe for 30 seconds, or until 26th floor.
Anyways, all hard feelings aside, IT IS FRIDAY! and it's A LONG WEEKEND! What y'all got planned for the long weekend? We are going down to Poconos again. This time we planned horse back riding, golfing (omg, I can't WAIT to drive a golf cart around) and kayaking. all in all, sounds like a well planned weekend.
But you know no matter how well planned a weekend is, some people can ruin it for me before it even starts. I don't know if it's just me or.. ok, it's me, it's just me being angry and jaded about all these so called "friends". Being late, don't want to come, all those damn excuses, it's really taking a toll on me. I don't know when I started getting ready up tight about timing and such. but being late and all those are so unacceptable in my books right now. I guess when people do that shit to you way too many times, it just wears on you.
If you are gonna be late, CALL BEFORE THE MEETING TIME. If we are meeting at 7pm, don't call me at 8pm to tell me you are running late. I KNOW, I get it! you are not here by 7pm, YOU ARE LATE! No need for reassuance. I ain't no fucking idiot.
If you don't want to come, if you have something planned, or just simply for the fact you don't want to see me. TELL ME A DAY BEFORE! b/c most of the time, I probably don't wanna see you either. No body is forcing you to come to join in the fun. Stay your ass at home if it's not something you wanna do. Don't ask me stupid questions like "what time you think i'll be there?" I don't know, depends on when your fucking stupid ass starts to leave? What kind of fucking question is that? this is what I don't understand, I do my best to be "friendly" and maintain friendship by hosting these shit, when people are taking that shit for granted. It just goes to show, that friendships aren't worth maintaining, b/c it goes both ways.
H and I are nothing but nice to people. Small shit, like offering rides, paying for dinner. to Big shit, lending people his car. Some people may call us stupid. and guess what? YES WE ARE. WE are fucking idiots for being so fucking nice to people all the fucking time. We are givers, and of course, all of our friends are natural takers. Shit, if I had friends like us, I'd be taking too.
H is on a higher level of stupidness in friendship than me. He's willing to drive 3 HOURS to Baltimore to get CRABS for the people we are meeting this wknd. SERIOUSLY! I ain't even joking when I just said that. This man is willing to drive 3 hours away, paying $80 on gas, on top of that, paying $100 for crabs, just so them mofos this wknd can have crabs. I get it that he wants to be NICE, and since he's not working, he wants to be the one going out of the way to please people. I get ALL OF THAT. But WHO THE FUCK IS GOING TO PAY YOU BACK? What da fuck are people going to say? "oh yea Henry, those crabs are nice, thanks man"
that is fucking it! Our money doesn't grow on trees. Why the fuck do we have to spend money for other people? he's ALWAYS taking up the shorter end of the stick. If the total was $500, divided amongst 6 people, that's $83.33 per person right? Guess what he will do. Everyone gives $80, we'll pay $90 each.
WHY? did these people suck you dick so well, that you are willing to take up the loose ends? Forrerals man, the only time he's gong to drive 3 HOURS away to get crabs or pay for anybody, is when I SAY SO! mother fucker don't understand them fucking people are here for the free ride, and i'm the bitch going through thick and thin with him. He needs to get that through his fucking head.
I may sound controling and shit. But I'm just here trying to protect my man. he should know better by now. After all the shit he's been through, there is only a handful who'll be there for him. Fuck all those other fucking posers and fakers. That's the lesson I learnt at least. If I'm nice to you, and you've done me wrong before, be known I'm only keeping you around b/c I still need to use you. Don't get your panties all twisted up in a bunch sweetie, that's how the world works. I'm not as "forgive and forget" as you think I am. I pretend for my own benefit. You might think you dudged a bullet b/c I ain't putting you on blast. Rememeber this, what goes around, comes around. Karma is a bitch, and she'll come back and bite you in the ass.
Shit, if she won't, I will. Just remember that...
Have a nice weekend, ladies. Payce~