just because you love it, doesn't mean it's easy..

just because i love blogging, doesn't mean it's easy to continue this hobby. i am so frustrated with blogger. i can't upload pictures in the correct order, and since i have a macbook, i can't move the pictures in the right order. wtf??

now i'm seriously having second thoughts of how often i can blog. i'm having such a hard time with the picture uploading, i think i might just back off and call off this blogging thing...

you guys like my new hair cut? it's nothing fancy, just a bit shorter. my perm is growing out, so it's getting straighter. and i'm thinking i will cut it short and perm it again.. but i think it'll make me look older... doesn't this pic make me look older?

on another note.. a little twist of the subject today. just because i am in love, doesn't mean a relationship is easy to maintain.. i say this not because him and i are having trouble in our relationship.. it's a bit early to tell.. but i think sometimes, the thought of "this may not work out" creeps into my mind..

how many relationships you have been in, where you thought the person you love was never going to hurt you. in the beginning, everything seems so easy, so perfect, like nothing could go wrong. but you hit the ditch, and hearts can change faster than weather in new england. i've definitely experienced heart break before.. never thought i'd be cheated on, lied to, but at the end, it's all worth it, because i learned to trust no one but myself. and all "good" things fell apart, so better things can fall into place..

but with him, i sometimes wonder, how could this be so easy? i don't know him.. i've only known him for 2 months and i've always met his parents. i know he wants me in his life. but will we work it all out? what if this relationship fall apart too? i'd have to start all over again..? how do i know this is it? we talked about moving in, marriage, kids and all that. it never felt "wrong" talking about it. but it's just.. it's all fine and groovy now, but what about a year from now? will we be in the same stage as now? will the fire burn out and it all end?

argh, ok, that's just me thinking out loud and dealing with my own insecurities. i'll leave you guys with a quote.. which speaks true of my jaded heart..

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."
— Marilyn Monroe

photo booth fun

i got a new macbook pro... photo booth is so addicting!

he took this pictures while i was takin' a nap..

playing around with my Besame lipstick, hehehe..

the effects on photo booth is hilarious!! we look so crazy here

gangsta baby... i'll cut you.

daisy baby says hi~~

so Mr.R is on a backpacking trip through south east asia for 2 weeks. i thought i was going to have a hard time letting him go.. but surprisingly i have been doing very well.

anyways, speaking of Mr.R, i forgot i haven't introduced him to you guys yet. well, where to begin.. he's taiwanese chinese, 6'2", bald (see above), works in finance.. and ummm.. has really nice arms... lol... and umm... a great kisser.. and umm.. he's perfect...

we've been dating for 2 months and i feel like i've known him for years. i know it sounds like we are moving way too fast, but when it feels right... it just all fall into places..

last weekend, i met his parents *gasp* i know!!! we spent the day eating dimsum, visiting the MET, and visiting his apartment. it was a great day.. i don't know if it's just the honey moon period, but i am so in love with him. we've had our ups and downs, we all had to adjust being from single to having someone you call baby.. but so far, everything's going pretty smoothly...

i am still have 1 box of makeup to unpack, can you believe it? i've moved in since august and it's now november, and i still have a piece of my life in a box.. which explains the lack of makeup related posts.

alright ladies, i'm going to leave it here. till next time.. stay pretty~