interesting comment..

throwingmuses said...
I do not know you personally but i can certainly empathize with your situation. I used to work at Salomon Smith Barney for three years and finally got out of the business all together because my boss and the work was just awful to the point it was making me ill. Every morning I felt like throwing up. I am so much happier now. I suggest you skip the MBA quit frankly unless you can be sure that the finance business or some sector of it can make you happy- it would be a shame to spend all that time and money - take a break from work albeit school-only to end up right back in the same situation you were before.Musings

Hi Musings, thanks for visiting my blog and leaving such a thoughtful comment. I definitely thought about this whole finance thing, do i really like it? am i just in it b/c of what everyone else thinks?
I actually did my first real internship at Citigroup Smith Barney, working under a wealth manager. I admit, I was fasinated by the corner office with a view of the Boston Bay, the chic suits, the big glossy lobby with marble floors. I thought, this is what I want. I went into Finance major thinking it'd be great to learn how to manage and investment money, if this falls through, at least i know how to invest my own money later on.
Before graduation, I always knew I wanted to be in the investment/finance industry, I wanted to get a feel of different job positions, travel maybe, learn some valuations, rub shoulders with the higher managements. Well, my first real job wasn't exactly what I was looking for. Since joining the Audit industry, I feel like I'm stuck, I can't go anywhere. I'll always be labeled as an Auditor.
2 yrs passed by. I still haven't figured out what I want to do in the finance industry. I can't be a banker now, it's too late. I can't be a trader nor researcher, b/c I have no real finance background, I AM IN ACCOUNTING! THE BORINGEST SHIT TO DO IN THE WORLD! i thought going to MBA would help me to figure out what I want to do. But truthfully, honestly, in the bottom of my heart, I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE!
Quitting my job now is unfeasiable, I've already built a life style around the kind of salary i earn. so I guess you can say, I'm working for the money. Finding what I like to do? well.. aside from make up, i have no fucking idea what i like. make up is something that can take my attention away, that draws me in, i have passion for make up. however, I've always thought I had passion for teaching as well. I've taught and tutored English and Chinese, both job I've thoroughly enjoyed. However, how can I afford a mortgage, a 3-4 trips a year life style on a teacher's salary?
Sigh.. it's a vicious cycle. I know. I have no idea if after MBA i'd figure out what I like to do. MBA is kind of like a golden ticket to the unknown, but it'll give me some time to figure out what I want. Maybe I just see it as, once I'm done with MBA, i'll figure everything out! i'll be all set!

So my question is.... what are you doing now? how did you make the transition? does the money factor ever come into play? how did you know what you are doing now is what you want to do for the rest of your life?